Animal Scans

Went for my animal scans today PET/CAT/MRI. I don’t know why they all sound like something that is supposed to be cute because they are not. In the morning, as I walked in to the Roy Disney Cancer Center I almost began to weep. Thankfully, I no longer enter in to this with fear not knowing what to expect because I do. It was just walking in the door again. There, going through this crazy cancer journey are so many people. Some have the look of shock with wide eyes of fear knowing they have just heard those awful words "you have cancer" . Some with all stages of hair loss from the thinning hair to the complete baldness, some wear hats to hide, some just have gotten so use to the baldness they wear it proudly knowing they are still here. I fit somewhere in between all of them I am no longer shaking with fear, and have lost my look of shock, but I am still scared to accept the familiarity of all of this. I like denial it keeps me safe it keeps me not accepting a death sentence and yet it does keep me hoping that I will live to see my healing. So I was grateful today that this reality has changed my life for the better. So gratefully, I have such a loving Father that held my hand the whole time.

God Can Talk Through An Ass

So today is my big debut at The Angeles Clinic, to see Dr. I Know Everything About Melanoma. We will see if there are any new and effective clinical trials for me. Hopefully, there is a non-balding one but if not I will start my chemo cocktail my doctor has recommended. So with all that said I had ask for prayer because I will be driving to the “Big City” (it is only about 35 miles) and is totally out of my comfort zone. I received so many posts on Facebook from dear sweet friends that really encouraged me, especially this one “If God can talk through an ass in the bible He can do anything”. Don’t you just love it! I know I am the apple of my Father’s eye and I am more than an ass so I am expecting God to do great and mighty things. He always does He always will!